i'm currently spamming youtube for this song.
i don't know the band but i think it's more nicer that way. just enjoying songs you barely know :)

someone, play this for my birthday :) it's the perfect gift.

-one smile, and i died...only to be revived by you-
(one and only you - parokya ni edgar)

if not a constellation then you(star).

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yeah it's the holidays. how are you spm survivors doing? still alive i see. :) good luck yaww.

to sum up my holidays, i'm either at my grandma's place, out for a movie, or rotting in this quicksand/my room.

i had so much planned for the holidays.
i was going to write. [check.]
i was going to play more. [check.]
i was going to indulge in yoga. [check.]
i was going to starve. yes, starve, can you believe it? [uh, check? not so much.]
i was going to cut down on sugar. [*that guilty grin*]
i was going to resist my daily dose of caffeine. [not working.]
i was going to read. [not working, shocker.]
i was going to pick myself up and forget the possibilites. (....)


because now i'm stuck in this gutter looking up at the stars. i know you're one of them, and i think i've found you. i just don't know how to get you to pull me up.
i just can't get you to pull me up because i see you holding the sign with "it might have been" written in bold.
i never wanted to hate you.

so much for the holidays.

-i'm high above the clouds, you know i'm suffocating....but i blame this town-
(adore - paramore)

it takes reaction.

to manipulate the space/time continuum.

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things should just pause for a while. i'm sick of looking ahead.
i wanna look up for a change.

lonely was the song i sang.

“Life is like a box of crayons. Most people are the 8-color boxes, but what you’re really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners on the back. I fancy myself to be a 64-color box, though I’ve got a few missing. It’s ok though, because I’ve got some more vibrant colors like periwinkle at my disposal. I have a bit of a problem though in that I can only meet the 8-color boxes. Does anyone else have that problem? I mean there are so many different colors of life, of feeling, of articulation.. so when I meet someone who’s an 8-color type.. I’m like, hey girl, magenta! and she’s like, oh, you mean purple! and she goes off on her purple thing, and I’m like, no – I want magenta!”

- John Mayer

i just had to blog this :)

-half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring..-

(half of my heart - john mayer ft. taylor swift)

hear it. just GODDAMN HEAR IT.



the intro is killing me. KILLING ME!
and even if this is the hardest john mayer song ever, i'm gonna learn it baybeh.

-who knows, how long? how long?-
(neon - john mayer)

the definition of space.

moments that passed; that i did not blog about. and now i'm too lazy to reminisce them in detail.

october birthdays,
BP :),
Y.E. events,
class party and loads more. (pictures on facebook.)

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god this is like my 3rd attempt at blogging something today but i just can't think of anything.
but i would like to say that i've come to notice how judgemental the atmosphere is in school nowadays.
and i'm not saying anything against it because i find myself constantly judging the people i know so little about.
i actually believed how beautiful the insides were of some people, only to have seen the other side of this sick trend.
i need to stop labelling things around me.

-if you judge people, you have no time to love them- Mother Teresa.

-love isn't love, till you give it away-
(send it on - various artists)

rain essence with opened eyes.

i don't know what the 40 have no shoes means exactly. maybe it was a literal statement.

but i deem that 40 have no where to stand and no mind to believe they can do it on their own.

for the change of at least 40 of those people, lets believe.

-i've done a lot of wrong things but i swear i'm a believer-

(the river - good charlotte)

FREEDOM WRITERS

this is why i sometimes think of becoming a journalist.
movies like these just gives you so much to pour on, you know.
loved every bit of it :) p.s. mario's in it *smiles*

i wanna try and find "The Freedom Writer's Diary" and "The Diary of Anne Frank" so badly now.

Miep Gies (as from The Diary of Anne Frank in Freedom Writers) :
I am not a hero. I did what i had to do because it was the right thing to do. We are all ordinary people. Even an ordinary secretary or a housewife, or even a teenager, can within their own small ways, turn on a small light.... in a dark room.

captured for keeps.

things in the gutter.

1. i missed the form 5 graduation 'cause of my never-ending mucous. :(
2. i have YET to see 'This Is It'.
3. my high E string broke.
4. exam is still not overr.

things on the go

1. the nerve-wrecking exam papers are considered over. less livita, less nescafe, less studying!
2. mum said she'll go get ALL the guitar strings replaced. i can already picture it's fresh tune :)
3. i'm gonna start dancing like shit again after exams.
4. i got narrowed questions for my upcoming accounts exam. lols shhhh....
5. i'm gonna be watching movies everyday with my cousins whom are coming down for holiday.
(i hope that makes up if i never get to watch This Is It in the cinema)
6. i've got so many undone tunes i can work on after exams.

i feel pretty good now. gonna start getting whacked out before SPM next year. before i start making private deals with Redbull and Nescafe for life.

- they don't care how they get there as long as they get somewhere they know...-
(rock and roll - eric hutchinson)

even in my dream, you said her name.

again, diwali was awesome. thanks to those who came and made it worth while :)

first week of exam is over.

i died of anxiety. and there's two more weeks to go. ***k.

the only thing that's keeping me sane is that i'm writing. ideas are flooding in and i'm easily inspired these days :)

and i know my blog is dying, not only are the posts barely breathing but i myself have no interest to blog these days. even tumblr, gosh how i loved tumblr when i first started off. but now i don't really give a rat's ass about tumblarity or whether people who follow me are gonna like my post.

don't even get me started on twitter.

i just feel like i need a break from all of this. i don't know.

-we've only got 86,400 seconds in a day, to turn it all around or throw it all away-

(live like we're dying - the script)

p.s. if you don't listen to The Script, you need to, like NOW.

i lost all sense of misery.

and diwali this year was one i shall reminisce. :)

i'll talk through some cheap quality pictures.

Pre-Diwali

it's totally henna time.

p.s. first time doing henna for diwali, thanks to those who excited me into doing it :)





was gambling that night. this is my first time getting that set and i WHOA'ed EVERYONE :)

and here begins thee fireworks at my grandma's at night.

that's sharen. where's my t-shirt shereen?

that's davin. the one who lost ms. dauber.

oh yeah.


DIWALI. the day.

only picture i got with my brother. damn boy not even looking at the camera. :(

cam-whoring sikit, awaiting delicious food at my granma's place :)

that's jasy masie and the 'american' baby, aneesha :)

gurvir and manvir. big bollywood heroes la...XD

that's manvir :)

reina, the accomplice, the alliance-keeper :)

at my other granma's hse, that's davin trying to mix punch. note : *tries*

shereen again.

and that's the little ballerina, sherineel :) i didn't get a picture with her bro, shermit. poor boy was sick.

Post-Diwali

awaiting more food at granma's place. HELL YEAHH.

friggin' adorable cousin prannveer. the only one who chased after balloons like a little puppy.:D

yeah i tried to do this. couldn't.

instead, i watched my husband's movie for the millionth time :)

last gambling session of the festival.

sorry i kind of forgot to take pictures of the food i was eating. too busy EATING la duhh :)

had like 3 homemade thosai for lunch on the first day,

2 and a half pizza's for dinner,

3 homemade thosai's again for lunch on post-diwali and two for dinner.

why the obsession?

'cause it was the best i've ever tasted topped off with spiced chilli chicken and creamy veggie with lime punch to quench it's salvation for more.

no kidding.

happy diwali yaww :)

- some mexican tune in the background-

(just felt like it)